Down the Rabbit Hole
Every afternoon the butterflies play!
This morning I woke up to the most glorious weather. I had no idea just how glorious until I stepped out on the porch at the beach to meditate and was met with cool temperatures, low humidity and a gentle cool breeze. I had to go back inside and get a blanket because it was so chilly. Weather like this is very very unusual for the month of July at Bald Head Island and I feel it was a gift from the Universe. I had been asking for some peace from my endless thoughts and this morning I felt that peace started to settle in somewhat. It's so easy to say, "just be joyful because you are the creator of your own reality". While I completely believe that...sometimes we create a reality that we don't really like. Once that momentum of crazy thinking starts, we just have to go down the rabbit hole until it's over. For me, it's usually a trigger of some sort that brings me back, or like today, a beautiful morning that reminds me of just how blessed I am in spite of my mind telling me otherwise.
Path leading to the ocean
Fear of the unknown, particularly when it comes to having life as you know it shaken to the core, is frightening. This is where trust and faith come in. Honestly speaking, I'm scared of being alone for the rest of my life, and it's very clear to me after this time at Bald Head that being alone is not my preference. As hard as it's been the past few days, having this space has been a gift. I've learned a few things about myself. I am determined to allow the goodness that is out there to flow into my life and this solitude has made that determination even stronger.
Leaving the harbor at Bald Head Island
Life is constantly changing, life is precious and nothing lasts forever. It would be easy for me to say that I have wasted the past few days feeling sorry for myself, but I know some inner work has been happening and I will go home stronger. Making an effort to live in a conscious way and being aware of the guidance we're offered on a moment to moment basis is the only way to come back from the rabbit hole. We all go down it at some point and hopefully gain clarity and just a little more trust. It is always about coming back to what we know to be true.
Happy Sunday! I hope the weather where you are is as gorgeous as it is here. I'm leaving in a little while, and feeling (finally) very appreciative of my days here. Thanks so much for reading today! ~ July 8, 2018