You Can Always Move Forward
At the end of 2021, I was happier than I ever remember being in my life. I felt that I had finally done the spiritual work to get me out of a funk that I had been in for many years. I firmly believe that our spiritual work never ends and we keep learning and growing if that’s what we choose to do.
As a result of much deep thought about what I wanted to do next, I decided that 2022 would be the year that I would grow my business, set some big goals for myself and end the year being able to say it was the best year of my life.
I decided to jump into two things immediately. The first thing I decided to do was to write a course that would help women in midlife. I named it Journey of Becoming because, as I said above, we are on a never ending journey. The second thing I decided to do was to enter a body building contest.
I am training for my competition and my course is complete. This course took me a solid month to write and some days I worked 12 hours or more, just sitting and writing. It included a written module, an audio of the module, a meditation that pertained to the day and homework.
I didn’t write this course claiming to be a professional coach. I wanted to share my story because I knew others could relate to what I had been through. I wanted to share how I came out the other end of a very dark place and time in my life. There were many valuable lessons learned during that time.
We are all enough because we are here on this earth…every single person, however, the problem is that most people don’t know they are enough just because.... We feel we have to prove our worth, or that we don’t matter in the first place. Midlife can be a time of such great change and a time when our confidence as women can become low because of so many unexpected circumstances. Menopause plays havoc with our bodies, we sometimes gain weight and have hot flashes and trouble sleeping. We can and many times do feel that we have no purpose because our children are grown and gone and that we’re not relevant anymore. And to top it all off, our marriages have often lost their spark.
I experienced so much of this…I went through a very rocky time in my marriage, we almost didn’t make it. I felt very depressed when my last daughter left for college and my confidence was rock bottom. I decided to start Crazy Blonde Life because it gave me something to do every day. Something creative that I could focus on and my hope was that it would someday make money because at the time, I sincerely thought my marriage would end.
However, starting my blog, wasn’t how I brought myself back. I brought myself back because I decided I wanted to. I decided. I had to learn that I mattered, that I was worthy, that I was good enough. I taught myself. I didn’t stop learning and reading and praying and meditating. I did it and the Universe responded to me. I am still learning and reading and praying and meditating. I will ever stop. I have decided what I want in my life and I will work every single day and I know without a doubt that my business will continue to grow, that I will continue to grow and that my marriage will only get better. I know this because it’s what I decided and every time I decide what I want and it’s definitive…the Universe responds to me.
This isn’t about religion. This isn’t about being an expert or a certified coach. This is about sharing what I went through, how I brought myself back and inspiring others to start that journey of realizing that they matter…that they always mattered…that they were always enough…but that they just temporarily forgotten.
I WANT TO HELP WOMEN MY AGE DECIDE TO HAVE THE LIFE THEY WANT AND DECIDE AGAIN EVERY SINGLE DAY BECAUSE THAT’S WHAT IT TAKES. IT TAKES NEVER GIVING UP ON YOURSELF. IT TAKES TELLING YOURSELF EVERY DAY THAT YOU CAN TAKE A BABY STEP TOWARD YOUR DREAMS. SOME DAYS YOU MAY TAKE A LEAP, OTHER DAYS, JUST A STEP, BUT YOU CAN ALWAYS ALWAYS MOVE FORWARD IF…YOU DECIDE TO.
I had seven women sign up for Journey of Becoming and we have all gotten to know each other through a Facebook group. I have enjoyed this more than I could possibly describe. From everything they’ve shared with me to this point, Journey of Becoming has been valuable to them and they have grown and will continue to grow as a result. That makes my heart so happy!